to long

as i lay in this bed
and wither away
i reflect on the past
and my better days
when i was younger
and strong enough to walk
when i had lots to say
and always loved to talk
but as i lay here
enshourded in blankets
im sure im at my end
i dont know how much longer can i take it
i realize this bed
and blanket are like a coffin
and i couldnt leave if i wanted
im basicially locked in
my muscles to weak to move
my hands to weak to grab
my legs to weak to support
my lungs to weak to gasp
as i wither away
alone in this room
i remeber my maker
and hope he takes me soon
as i wither away
lost and forgotten
i slowly close my eyes
hoping i spot him
my view out the window
is always the same
the thoughts in my mind
move to slow to change
so the days run togther
i barely notice the night
time has stopped moving
as i breathe in this plight
ive been here to long
my tears have dried to my cheeks
theres no one to talk to
so i really never speak
so ill just lay in this bed
and wither away
and hope that tomarrow
will stay forever away

broken cistern

i poured the water in
it fell out on the ground
discoloring the dirt
thats how ill be found
i poured the water in
hoping it would stay
but it just created mud
where there used to be clay
i poured the water in
knowing what would transpire
it trickeled out the bottom
and extinguished the fire
i poured the water in
with useless futility
i poured the water in
to what you ask? to me

the mountain

i decided to climb the mountain
knowing all the rules
i decided to climb the mountain
and ended up looking like a fool
i made it so far up the mountain
i could see all id left behind
i must have been half way there
when i started my fast decline
i lost my grip and begain to fall
tumbling through the air
when i reached to save my self
i found nothing was there
when i finally landed
it hurt so bad
id gone so far
and just lost all i had
my legs were tired
and my arms were weak
my breath was gone
i could barely speak
i looked at the mountain
and the facts finally set home
if i wanted the peak
i couldnt do it alone
i needed a partner
someone much better than me
or id just fall of that mountain
continually
i called up my friend
and said i need you this minute
well hes on his way
it will make a big difference
he knows different paths
than id ever guess
when the storms come
he'll hide me in the clefts
he knows all the tricks
hes been here before
so the farther we go up
ill need him even more
will we ever reach the top?
that i dont know
but my friend has arrived
so im ready to go

her on me

as i heard his words
my ears rang with pain
the past was gone so quickly
we'd never be the same
my love turned to hate
and my patience to grief
as i sat on the phone
in utter disbelief
at first i thought it was a joke
but hes not quite that cruel
and i know its the truth
id been played for the fool
all of the fighting
should have been my first warning
the empty space in the bed
when i woke up in the morning
he said he wanted to go
but i demanded he stay
i was use to his body
at the start of every day
i was used to his word
before i went to bed
i was used to my hands
rubbing on his head
i was used to making breakfast
the start of every morning
i was used to his touch
every time i was horny
i was used to his kisses
when i was feeling down
but after his today words
all of thats gone now
tears rolled of my cheeks
and speckeled my shirt
my breath wasent coming
and all of me hurt
my stomach was in knots
i thought i was going to hurl
with a few simple words
he destroyed my whole world
my life wont be the same
i need time away
to decide what we'll do
i cant decide today
so leave me alone
till i call you again
right now were nothing
not lovers not friends