...her...

i think of her often
sometimes for long times
sometimes just a memory
passing through my mind
i dream of her longing
for a special moment
a memory not to forget
i want to be the one that she finds
but what to do with these thoughts
the ones that make me wonder
and as i wonder on these thoughts
i search for what they have to offer
some times i feel so lost
missing her for no reason
but i long for her just the same
her skin look soft and her lips softer
but i cant dwell upon these dreams
and these thought of this one
though shes on my mind
theres so little i can do
for its not often what it seems
and i cant afford a broken heart
so i just wonder on these thoughts
and pray for god to pull me through

symptomatic

my head aches
my heart throbs
my knees hurt
my eyes sob
as my soul yearns father
i dont know what to do
ive tried all of my medicine
but they just cant get me through
nothing quite satisfies
like your loving touch
i need you again father
i miss you very much
this moment im gettin sicker
i can feel it in my viens
i can make my self numb father
but you take away the pain
every time i cure the symptoms
they just come back even worse
my body is dried out
know i truely know thirst
i know that you can heal me
with just a simple touch
im dying for you father
i need you very much
come cure your sick child
make me healthy again
i feel so alone right now father
dying with out a friend
those that love me most
hurt me like the others
those that love me least
love me like no other
i want to be closer to you
right now im falling away
im lost in my night time
i want to enjoy your day
so come heal this sick one father
restore to me my health
for i cant make it alone
ill die with out your help

some favorites?

i have to send my great aunt some of my poetry cause she wants to read it. also im submitting a poem to a magazine to get published so if you guys could tell me what your favorite, or some of your favorites are. i kno theres a lot of poems and im having a hard time narrowing it down so if you let me know id appriciate it. after i get this all sorted out i think ill be ready to write again. who knows maybe sooner!

a post

i usually up date every day but to be honest ive been emotionaly and physically exhausted the past few days. i had 4 days off of work so i decided i wouldnt write for a few days.....sorta recharge my batteries (for those of you that think writing is easy...well your lucky, cause i dont think it is). to be honest i dont feel like writing right now. im probably gonna go spend a few moments in the good book, then read one of the books i got this weekend, i did get over 20. whoo hoooo! such fine selectoins as the oddesy to les miserables. so ive gotta pick one to start. let see i also got 2 rifles, some rembrant pictures (no not originals), a record player, tape deck, real to real recorder, and somo stuff. quite a visit to my great aunts. well i just thought id tell you ill be back in full effect tomarrow, and if no one has read this for for days then i thought id tell my self (blaine youll be back in full effect tomarrow). ok nights