lacy may

as your smell wears out
of my von zipper hoody
i realize
im gonna make it
ill miss you like crazy
the way you made me laugh
and smile
your long legs
your dark eyes
i called you cookie monster
and you called me baby
i loved you
and you loved me back
then you were gone
who knows besides fate
and maybe god
and perhaps the stars
if we will ever see each other again
but i miss you
just like ill miss your smell in my hoody
so will be my life
after you have worn away

monday night

I am alive
with feelings
dropping out
the bottom of my heart
and with passion
dripping out of my pores

fortuitous really
a charmed life
led with boot straps pulled up
and occasionally
pants around my ankles
I have loved and been loved
depending on what that means
Heartbroken...
thats with out a question
but always
with all of myself on the line
never content to be a shadow
but always afraid of the spot light

ever single memory
is
a different girl
on
a different bench
and me
im always the same
a rock
an island
the peninsula
lounging lazily in the sea
afraid to be a part of the mainland
but more afraid to be alone