a man and his misery

as i sit here lonely
hearing fingers strike keys
i listen to the piano
and begin to weep
not hard or down pouring
just one single tear
that fall off of my cheek
and drops into my beer
i let that tear fall
for the life that ive lived
i could have been cought
but i fell through the sieve
i let that tear fall
for the ones that ive crossed
and i should let one more go
for the ones that ive lost
ive lived many years
with many regrets
when i was younger
i thought better i expect
but now that im older
i realize the truth
that life slowly slips away
till its gone in a poof
some times it goes
when you let out your last breath
my life went away
when i had nothing left
my spirit left my heart
when i turned 43
the day my wife died
and left me to be me
i found depths to my soul
i knew not exsisted
and slowly they burried me
instead of being uplifted
i found darkness in places
i expected the light
i found parts of my mind
that raced all through the night
i lost my wife the last time i cried
and i havent cried in 17 years
lost all my life
and shed not 1 tear
but as i sit here lonely
and think of this earth
i let loose with 1 tear
that it truely deserves
and when this tear falls
all of my life will be gone
but ill still be here drinking
compleatly alone
so remeber this tear
that i shed on this night
for that single tear falling
is the last of my life