raving and ranting...or is it ranting and raving

ok before anything else you must go to www.engrish.com its awesome...im bout to go shopping! so lets see. i miss my x terribly....its been like 6 months...arnt guys supposed to get over this shit easily? arg i dunno. i just wish that i could be happy. i dont need her back, i dont want to forget about her. i just wish i could be at peace with it. i feel like im fighting vietnam in my head. damned if i do damned if i dont. besides that theres so much going on that i dont want to get into it. like if i do ill be ranting for hours and i dont wanna write it and you dont want to read it. so ill spare us all. work kicks my ass. i cant wait to start my internship. im still skinny. i bought new shoes and a hat to match. it makes me feel good now and then. i love shoes *heart*. being single is hard. wandering eyes make it harder. trusting god to find the right woman for me is hard. having wandering eyes makes it harder. my nose just started bleeding. it dropped a nice fat drop right on my 50 dollar eddie beauer kahkis. : i love my pants. theyre soaking in water. im now pant less. ugh what a morning. i say that cause its 1243...am bastards. and i need to pray. theres so much to think about and to do and my life is so easy and slow mo. i dont kno how these people stay so busy and sane. well no i guess alot of em are nuts as hell. still they do so mcuh. i do so little and im still so stressed. maybe i just need to get laid..to bad i swore that off. seriously i want to be the best man i can for the wife god has for me. im stuck between a rock and a hard place...and i dont think god or my sex drive are going anywhere soon. at least i kno god can and will win. well im gonna go i guess. maybe ill write a poem again in a minute...and dont for get www.engrish.com


addendum. i keep reading about katrina. and i have to say though this will piss most if not all of the people who read this off. please stop donating to katrina relief. the red cross cant do that much and they take a huge chunk of your money. the armed forces are in charge of damn near ALL the relief effort ( i kno cause my mom went to new orleans as a nurse and they sent her back cause the armies taking over) anyways the government is footing the WHOLE bill. every red cent and that means by you paying taxes you already get to contribute. please please. dont waste all your money on organizations that will eat half of it when your already paying for all this anyways. send food, send water, send clothes, dontate what you can. but STOP sending your money. sorry i had to say it no one else will.