the daze

one of them days
where everything goes
nothing pushes forward
but nothing pushes back
the jokes are stale
the games no fun
just surviving
living and dying
lifes like that sometimes
what can you do
but shrug it off
and keep on pushing
living
breathing
eating
all the same shit
all the same day
well i guess its different
but its all the same
anyways
im tired
but i dont wanna sleep
my dreams haunt me
i dont wanna see em
im tired of waking up in a sweat
im tired of crying in my mind
why do i do it?
i really couldnt say
what do i dream about?
id rather not mention
its to painful to think about
at least while im awake
then another long day
work work work
then a little more sleep
but i dont wanna go
i can hardly stand it anymore
"some times im so depressed i can hardly get out of bed"
ya some times its like that
dragging
slacking
lacking
the drive, motivatoin, dedication, and diliberatoin
for proper consumation
of this worlds information
inflation
and conflabulation
i miss the old digs
when life was so fast
you didnt wanna miss a moment
no its so slow
i couldnt miss em if i closed my eyes
cause id dream
and some times a dream
is worse than reality