im having trouble writing..thats why i wrote that terrible rap i was hoping it would losen up my writers block. it didnt so i thought i would just ramble about my day for a while and see if anything intresting comes up...so off i go. lets see i woke up early*shudders*, but i already wrote about that...though im tempted to write more i hate it so much. after i bathed i realized i had a spider bite on my leg....which in its self isnt bad, but considering all my other minor ailments i feel like im fallin apart...and it sucks! im only 21 how the heck can i already be falling apart? after that i rode my bike to work. nice ride. then i worked. washing dishes for 7 and a half hours so its not much to describe. wash, put away, repeat, then repeat some more for a while, then whipe down the counters mop and go home. pretty simple eh? oh, oh but i got new shoes for work (i was raised by women so i get excited about shoes so leave me alone^_^) theyre these berkinstocks called 'superberkis' and theyre rubber so theyre water prood and you cant slip in em which is very very lucious when your on wet tile floor all day. and theyre green so they stand out quite nicely with my black and white work digs. then umm i went to the coffee shop that is like my home away from home and read for a while. thats what i do work, write, pray, and read in no preticular order. its monday so my pastor and his family have people over for a nice little dinner we like to call "goodnessfest" which rocks. its good food and good conversation. usually we try to have a question to focus the discussion which i love and tonight it was "whats the difference between reincarnation, and resurection? and why does it matter?" so its a two parter if you couldnt tell. if you really want the answer ask and ill tell you later. if you dont or you already kno im not going to waste me time now:P. i hafta say though its really nice to go to a friends house for dinner and have a nice 2 hour conversation where you really talk about something. i find so often in life our conversations are so superficial and lacking of any true meaning. i mean yes those conversations are fun and nice now and then. but when they become the heart of what we say and think it can be quite detramental to the spirt. it may life you up here and there but i think focusing our lives on what we can get from this earth has been proven time and time again to be lacking of what we truely need. i guess thats what jesus was talking about when he said "man cannot worship two gods." either way though i still enjoy those little convos about nothing but i want more! its like me and my friend daniel talked about so many times. isnt it better to talk and have some meaning with the time you spend with people as opposed to just "hanging out." i love to kick it dont get me wrong but more and more i find myself longing for something deeper in my friendships. i dont just want to kno about you, i want to kno YOU. your deepest thoughts on the most important things and how they make YOU who YOU are. i mean if you really let all the materialistic things you own define you then were gonna have some seriously painful conversations for both of us i hate to say it. but alas i think ive rambled long enough and still have no insperation. maybe ill just play solitare and see if i can find a book in my room i havent read yet. perhaps tomarrow.