how many times have I composed the lines trying to refine the thoughts in my mind Ive been trying to find the reason or rhyme for my emotional crime of the lives I've aligned I dont do things cause of mood swings or lifes not moving. I know the truth stings when the truth rings true. Im losing you. So Im choosing to do new things. I need to change. Stop ignoring pain reduce the strain of those ive blamed and try to regain the lovely strain of life unstained by deranged decisions ive made while others have paid ...